"All the days of the desponding and afflicted are made evil [by anxious thoughts and forebodings], but he who has a glad heart has a continual feast [regardless of circumstances]." Proverbs 15:15 (AMP)
For almost two years, I went through a terrible period in my life where I was weighed down by past events and the anxieties that seemed to hover over me. I was filled with bitterness, fear and dread. My daughter was in counseling over what her father had done to her in the past and was moving toward getting better and dealing with his death. I was in counseling to help me meet her needs, about her past and in both of us moving toward the future, and I was just frozen still in time inside.
I just kept feeling like peace of mind was going to happen. It was hard to forgive my husband of 8 years and to forget what all had happened. I had to forgive and move on from lies, deceit, and destruction caused by my former church and church leadership. Insane circumstances, things that I just could not understand...and never received closure to all the hurt, anger, and bitterness that I felt for them and their attacks. Finally I went to the Lord and talked with Him about what was troubling me. He told me it was memories of the past that were haunting me and that I had never claimed The Blood of Jesus to cover them. Then and only then can you be able to forgive.I plead The Blood of Jesus over all the past hurts and the anxieties that followed them. Then, Jesus ministered to me, teaching me to just let those things go and not bury the dead things and dig them back up or sit and weep all the time over those things that were lost or abused. I needed to give them to Him - cast all of them onto Jesus. I had to forget them and go on. If we continue to allow the enemy to rule our lives with the past and anxiety, our lives will only consist of becoming upset over one little thing after another that really don't matter because we have allowed our past, fears, and anxiety to rule and reign our thoughts and feelings and we won't have much peace or joy. Jesus came to set the captives free...through Him and only Him can we be set free and where there is freedom, there is liberty!
David said, "In my anguish I cried to the LORD, and he answered by setting me free.", Psalm 118:5
With His Love and In His Service,
Pastor Jennifer
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I came upon your post from a Google Alert I set up on the phrase "plead the blood". I do this every day for my family and believe God showed me something about this which I wrote about in my blog in 2006. You might be interested in reading it at: http://roadrevelations.org/?p=50. Be blessed and look ahead!
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